This is why she blocked you

It’s taken her longer than it should have but her heart finally had enough of the pain she was holding on to. Her heart finally told her it was time to stop clinging on to you because you weren’t coming back.

This is why she blocked you. She blocked because she didn’t want to be reminded of your flashy smile when she wasn’t in your life anymore. She blocked you because she didn’t want to be reminded of your smile and of your sunshine when all she felt was thunder.

She blocked you because she felt too much and too little all at once. She blocked you because she didn’t want to feel the sharp pain in her heart when she was reminded of your daily activities. She didn’t want to feel the pain of knowing you were in a better place without her.

She blocked you because she couldn’t bear to see your shining eyes. Your smiling cheeks. Your genuine heart. Your symphony. Your deep laugh. Your stunning soul.

 She needed to stand up instead of shatter. She had to become stronger. 

Stronger for herself, not for you.

She blocked you for herself.

She stopped holding on to you, punishing herself for your mistakes and actions. She finally stopped everything relating  to you. She finally decided to stop feeling guilty over the fact that she couldn’t change you and she couldn’t make you stay. She finally turned off her playlist of sad songs and realized it was time to let it all go.

She blocked you because she is stronger without you in her life. She blocked you because she didn’t need you anymore. She didn’t need your roots, because she decided to grow on her own.

She blocked you because realized your love wasn’t true. That your heart wasn’t in it for the right reasons. And she couldn’t stand to see you, to hear you and to talk to you. She blocked you because she finally realized that you were toxic. That you were never what she needed or wanted.

She blocked you because she had enough.

You were never going to be a different person. The kind of person that cared. The kind of person that was kind, that was genuine. She blocked you because you were never going to be who she truly needed in her life to lift her up.

She blocked you because she didn’t need you anymore. 

She had herself. And for once, that was enough. She was enough without you. 

Falling in love with you was not a choice. it just happened.

She stopped loving you today and finally let herself go.

#thoughtcatalog

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